Wilder Mind

Listening to the new Mumford album & the “broken” part of me wishes I’d be experiencing this with a certain someone who I’ve given my heart to a million times over, only to have it broken.

Well, now the healthy part of me wants to experience this with someone who cares about me!

I take this as a positive, & that I’m moving in the right direction. I too easily let this person back into my life after months of dormancy & I give him so much control over me.

Yes I am spending this beautiful night in my room, with my pink comforter & blue walls with one of my favourite bands playing & I do not feel alone tonight.

The last few weeks have been tough, but I see that I’m so much better off without this person lingering in my life.

The lyrics “So fuck your dreams” just played as I wrote that, felt like a little bit of retaliation, something to make me feel better. Right now I may be in this place, but eventually I’ll wish him well, for now, I wish him away.

I want, I need to follow my inner guide, and he’s no longer of my heart the way he used to be. I have no hate.

I just want the absolute best for myself.

Dear God, please help me find inner peace and give me the strength and courage to follow my inner guide.

Thank you.

Published by Vanessa

I've always wanted to be a writer. Here goes!

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