Deep gulps & small talk

Oops, I did it again. I put my heart and feelings on the line to be rejected.

I will never understand why he doesn’t want me the way I want him. I will never understand how he doesn’t see and feel the same things I do.

I am so fucking awesome. How come he doesn’t want me?

I can’t be his friend anymore. I can’t do this to myself.

Seeing him is like a drug. He makes me high and then I’m left with the sad, lonely come down. I can’t do this anymore.

I’ll love him forever, but I can’t be in his life.

I hope he works things out and finds happiness. But I can no longer be the side girl, plan b girl, the one who provides him with the things he needs – – if I don’t get what I need in return.

Am I strong enough to just let go?

Published by Vanessa

I've always wanted to be a writer. Here goes!

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