Is it possible to find love with someone you haven’t met in person yet? Well, in 6 days, I’m about to find out. I met an American on Tinder in November. I never really thought anything of it because well, the distance, and also the whole Covid thing didn’t help. After four months of consistentContinue reading “The ultimate dating experiment”
Category Archives: Beginnings
Celebrating Winter Solstice
December 21, 2014 was the first time I celebrated Winter Solstice. It’s a time to reflect on the past year, discard things that no longer serve a purpose and make intentions for the coming year. This is a time we metaphorically plant our seeds. This year it falls on Monday, December 21, 2020. And so,Continue reading “Celebrating Winter Solstice”
emotional pain > physical pain
I think some people don’t understand just how painful a breakup can be. Often times, friends and family of the afflicted will provide advice like: “you can do better”, “your ex ain’t shit”, “there are plenty of fish in the sea” and a slew of other things meant to help you out. Don’t get meContinue reading “emotional pain > physical pain”
the recovery process
With exercise, as with in life, it’s necessary to take time-outs to recover. When you’re benching 75 lbs, for example, you must take a rest after 8-12 reps, for at least 30-90 seconds, maybe longer depending on your body. We do this so during the next set, we can come at it from a preparedContinue reading “the recovery process”
the initial spark.
The following is a journal entry written on June 9, 2019: “So i met this guy, he’s super interesting, into the moon and stuff and the way the universe works. He taught me about energy and that our energy transfers from one thing to another and never goes away. He’s interesting, smart, cute. Kisses good.Continue reading “the initial spark.”
breakups and pandemics.
In this world with so much going on we forget to reflect and see why things are happening the way they are happening. My psychotherapist urges, “it’s not what’s happening TO you, it’s what’s happening for you.” This is the reason why things unravelled in my last relationship. I lost a grip of myself, whoContinue reading “breakups and pandemics.”
The year is 2020…
The year is 2020, and it might as well be the year 2000. Sure I’ve grown mentally, spiritually, physically and so on over the last 20 years, but the root problem still remains. Hi, my name is Vanessa and I suffer from low self-esteem. The same struggle I’ve had all my life and maybe notContinue reading “The year is 2020…”
Superficial strategy
When I start to get upset & wonder about him, I just remember he’s only good looking because of his beard. Without the facial disguise, he doesn’t do it for me, physically. Yes. Superficial, but it helps me through the emotions. April 2020 Update: still looks like this superficial strategy works. As I currently moveContinue reading “Superficial strategy “
Day 1 of No Contact
Day 1 of No Contact: I feel good. Had a great day. Thank you wine! Thank you family! & thank you friends! I cried in the shower a bit this morning. I’m not sure if those will be the last tears I shed for him. I’m gonna start a new book now… Not sure whatContinue reading “Day 1 of No Contact”
Third day of school
started school again because I couldn’t get myself a career in the field I initially studied. Just not cut out for if I guess. I’m finding it hard to make friends? Or maybe I’m finding it hard to settle in and be myself. Third day, going home and I feel inadequate. Everyone had such greatContinue reading “Third day of school”
modern love 