friendship – modern love

new.

it’s amazing to have friends; it’s amazing to be doing things, going out and cultivating these new friendships. but it’s also sad to lose old friends, as the same time. Two people who I thought were there for me have not showed up when I needed them and I’m having really hard time dealing withContinue reading “new.”

Radio silence

Is she my friend if I haven’t seen her in almost 3 weeks? She’s barely speaking to me, hasn’t reached out & has shown zero interest in the new things I’m exploring in my life. Maybe our friendship has reached full bloom and there is nothing else left for it but to whither away. IContinue reading “Radio silence”

Sweet Surrender

Dear God, In regards to my relationship with Elyse… I send out positive vibes to her; I miss her. I want our authentic friendship to overcome the bullshit. I surrender this relationship to you. I trust this situation to unfold according to your will. Amen.

Lost

I feel so lost lately. Fighting with my best friend. But it’s a silent fight. … I’m finally getting around to my vision board. But I’m second guessing myself. – where are my pics of Tina Fey, Amy Pohler, Kristen Wiig, Lena Dunham & Mindy Khaling? … It’s like the guy I’m dating is contemplatingContinue reading “Lost”

Drama

The first time I was called a drama queen I was 18. There is something within me that needs a bit of conflict, it tells me if the person really cares (or doesn’t). This must be my insecurities coming out and I must find a way to “fix” this part of myself. Otherwise, my friendshipsContinue reading “Drama”

Table for two.

I went for lunch with an old coworker of mine. It went alright. But when she started talking about the place I got fired from, I did feel uncomfortable. I suppose I’d have rather stayed in my state of ignorance than know the place of business is still functioning properly without me. It was alsoContinue reading “Table for two.”

The point of power

The point of power is in the present moment, but I cannot seem to claim it. I am holding onto negativity from Friday. I felt and still feel blown off, and I pushed it down until today, when I brought it up. I hear crickets. It’s fine if my friend does not want to acknowledgeContinue reading “The point of power”