A Semi-Quarantined Kinda Life

So the days go like this: 8:30 a.m. Wake-up – recite “I am enough” as soon as the latest failed relationship comes to mind. Then think to myself: “No! don’t look at your phone. You gotta meditate first”. 8:31 a.m. – Throw on Chakra related meditation, recite more mantras, focus on breathing, and remind yourself 

Playing big

Playing big scares the shit out of me. Fear of making mistakes and fucking up, worrying what people think. But it’s only when I put myself out there that things can change and I can grow. It’s scary, but it’s necessary. Maybe it won’t always feel this scary?

F.

Thinking of that day I loved love. Saw a couple canoodling on the subway and I thought it was so sweet.” I love love” I thought. I want to be in that feeling. I’d like to stay there. Happy & self-sure. Friendly & open. Not a thing could get me down. Yesterday I felt great.

Audio Journal

Hanging out.

I’ll have these like boys, for entertainment or maybe to make the days seem less lonely, knowing they aren’t going anywhere. Me bored In the background Just waiting for something to happen You’re 30 now. 30

Hey girl

  

I’m not sure what it is

I’m not sure why, but I’m missing my ex. We’ve now been broken up longer than we were together, and the last couple days I’ve been thinking about him.  I think I’ve been watching too much Roseanne and it makes me miss him and think of him!  Dan & Roseanne Connor, reminds me of the