when you’re stuck

The hardest part of change is not making the same choices you did the day before. It’s going to feel uncomfortable, and unfamiliar. There will be uncertainty and unpredictability. And in that moment, the game is ON. The body and mind would rather live in fear than trust in the unknown. When we feel that

diff dick, same problem

With the resurgence of this blog, i am re-reading my posts from years’ past. And just wow! I am going through the same problems in my love relationships that I had 5 years ago. Neediness, not knowing my worth and being comfortable with rejection are common themes. Don’t get it twisted tho, my money toward

the initial spark.

The following is a journal entry written on June 9, 2019: “So i met this guy, he’s super interesting, into the moon and stuff and the way the universe works. He taught me about energy and that our energy transfers from one thing to another and never goes away. He’s interesting, smart, cute. Kisses good.

breakups and pandemics.

In this world with so much going on we forget to reflect and see why things are happening the way they are happening. My psychotherapist urges, “it’s not what’s happening TO you, it’s what’s happening for you.” This is the reason why things unravelled in my last relationship. I lost a grip of myself, who

Old friends

“They’re too busy having babies and getting married” – the title of one of my books. My newly found friend asked why I took him to the Florence & the Machine concert – and my answer was that I didn’t know anyone else who’d want to go who I wanted to take. But it’s not

Bright lights and a victory dance

“Girls want attention. Women demand respect.” Holy shit. I need to know what he thinks. Texting with him is so intense. Now we met in person. He’s not bad looking. Kinda cute in the right light. I like his hair. He seems to be smart, Or a rambler. I felt like I knew I was

God is testing me.

I’ve asked to be released from my neediness. I’ve asked for help when it comes to love relationships. And in the last few weeks I’ve been tested. Feelings for my ex arose, I met a really cool guy & someone from my past showed up. I’m not sure what I was to do in these

I’m not sure what it is

I’m not sure why, but I’m missing my ex. We’ve now been broken up longer than we were together, and the last couple days I’ve been thinking about him.  I think I’ve been watching too much Roseanne and it makes me miss him and think of him!  Dan & Roseanne Connor, reminds me of the

Starting to feel weak

Feeling a little week, as it’s been over a week since I had a hit.  He said he was going to leave me alone, and he’s doing just that.  But I will carry on, do me, and be my beautiful self. 

What are you waiting for?

Well, my trip is going great, thanks for asking. While you deal with someone you aren’t even into, I was fucking a man in Iceland. I don’t care she slept in your bed while you went to work. I don’t want to know the details.