Thoughts from the last few days

One day he’s calling me his girlfriend, the next day he doesn’t call at all. When I first fell it was like: Wow Wow Wowowowowowowowowow Wow I really like him. I can’t stop thinking about him!!

Hey baby

Hey baby, what R u doing? I’m just waiting for you to text me. Are you sick of me yet? You’ve been quiet today, my head’s been loud.  I don’t know what to think. I mean, you’re human, you need your personal time, as we all do, but some more than others.  This is the

Dear you,

You’re like my favourite person in the world right now, my best friend really. I love talking with you, spending time with you, sharing my life stories with you. You’ve been such a huge part of my adolescents.  But I am just insanely jealous you’re dating someone and it isn’t me.  To be honest, yeah,

Just one more moondance with you, my love

I saw my man friend. And here come the rush of feelings I pretend I don’t have for him. I must stop seeing him. Immediately. Driving to a spot by the lake, a part of a song comes on that takes me right back to 8 years ago, when he and I used to sit

Dear God

Dear God, I’m not doing so well. Sadness has become a frequent visitor, and today he’s lingered. I cried because I missed one of my favourite bands perform tonight. I don’t have anyone in my life who would be interested in going with me. So that means I miss out too.

Third day of school

started school again because I couldn’t get myself a career in the field I initially studied. Just not cut out for if I guess. I’m finding it hard to make friends? Or maybe I’m finding it hard to settle in and be myself. Third day, going home and I feel inadequate. Everyone had such great

As the sun fades away

as the sun fades away I know he is getting ready to fuck the girl he’s been seeing. i want so badly to rid myself of this masochistic pain I continuously put myself through. he has made it clear he only sees me as a friend, yet I am delusioned. i picture our wedding day.

Self help

I’ve been sitting here on this lovely Sunday watching dating self help videos all day long while dreaming the man I want will text me. Have I got nothing better to do than wait around for him? I’m a bit of an internal mess right now, borderline infatuation and over thinking. It’s like I’m certain

Dating rant

I started dating someone new. Before we met in person he was constantly texting me, asking me lots of questions. We’ve been on two dates, in person we get along great, there’s attraction between us, and we’re always making plans for the next date. However, when it comes to texting during the weekdays, i haven’t

Radio silence

Is she my friend if I haven’t seen her in almost 3 weeks? She’s barely speaking to me, hasn’t reached out & has shown zero interest in the new things I’m exploring in my life. Maybe our friendship has reached full bloom and there is nothing else left for it but to whither away. I