As the sun fades away

as the sun fades away I know he is getting ready to fuck the girl he’s been seeing. i want so badly to rid myself of this masochistic pain I continuously put myself through. he has made it clear he only sees me as a friend, yet I am delusioned. i picture our wedding day. have i wasted my youth on this man? my brain screams yes, and one more moment spent thinking about him is more time wasted. do I drop him completely? my brain says yes. 

I’m home alone on a Saturday, plucking my unwanted hair. How many more lonely weekends do I want? Why don’t I try something new. Why don’t I try NOT replying to him? 

Published by Vanessa

I've always wanted to be a writer. Here goes!

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